New Year Update

Wow, I have not posted in a long time. I guess that I have been too busy living. I know that I have not been on the computer and Internet nearly as much as I had been. I am still NED (no evidence of disease) and have a follow-up CT later this month. Lingering treatment side-effects include fatigue, occasional weakness on my right side and more than occasional cognitive issues.

I sometimes have a difficult time with living. I had not realized how much I was getting ready to die. Living can be harder.

I certainly don't have much time to sit around and think about it. My children and mom-taxi duties keep me busy; along with choir and activities at the Wellness Community. I sometimes substitute at the high school and continue to moderate the quiz bowl team.

If I sub for two days in a row, I'm blown the rest of the week. I think it is a valid yardstick with which to measure myself and my readiness to return to work.

I look forward to 2009 as a year to become more comfortable with where I am now. I want to choose something outside of myself to focus on and choose something to develop within myself. Above all I choose to be thankful this year and behave with grace and gratitude.